hockey is CANADA'S game.

I tried blogging this with my ipod at church, but the internet there was messed. Anyway, I'll admit, I'm not the biggest fan of hockey, nor am I a really patriotic citizen of Canada, but you know what? I'M PROUD OF CANADA. We won GOLD in hockey in the vancouver 2010 olympics, HELLL YES. We proved to everyone whose (did i use this right?) game it really was on HOME TURFFF. We win, USA loses. We lost to them once, but hey - WE WON WHEN IT CAME TO GOLD ;) kay done.

TOOADDDD: As stupid as this may be, I've officially made it into a life lesson. We lose, so that we will come back and fight harder than we ever imagined, and WIN when it really matters :)

Oh, and another thing? I've officially GIVEN UP trying to help anyone. DON'T COME TO ME FOR HELP THEN JUST NOT LISTEN, LIKE WTF IS THAT. SO HERE: I'll tell you my honest opinion, and you can do whatever the hell you want with it. I really can't be bothered to deal with anyone else's bullshit anymore. I'm sorry if that makes me seem cold hearted; I REALLY DON'T CARE WHAT THE HELL OTHERS THINK ANYMORE. (well, kay i do, but honestly, if i don't know you, SCREWYOU.) I'll leave people to do whatever they want, I'll tell them what I think when they ask, and leave it up to them. They want to screw up, GO AHEAD. I'll just let others learn on their own, it works better. Same thing applies to me: if I don't listen to others, I'LL SCREW UP & LEARN IT ON MY OWN. Yeah, I'm stubborn, IKNOW..at least I'm trying to change that. woo kay i'm done for the day, goodnight.

just hit me with the truth

I'm BORED.
Hmm, suppose to be going to church soon...but, everyone's just slow. I'm early, for once :) but, as usual, my sister's late. Um, went swimming on Friday & Saturday - MY HAIR SMELLS LIKE CHLORINE, I CAN'T WASH THE SMELL OFF. WTH. I'm going gymming then swimming today after the second church. Alriiiight. I think we're going.

this time i mean it

You are not going to get in my way.

I can not, and will not let you.

No, I won't let you get in my head.

No, I won't let you mess me up.

I'm staying strong, moving head on.

I'm going to get what I want,

I'm going to succeed-

and nothing will stand in my way.

No, that doesn't hurt...not at all.


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boredom kills

okaaaay, time to read the socials textbook and prepare for tmrw's test.

hahah english paragraph done after a billion hours of editing and it's still not perfect, sighh.

Humans: beings that have a tendency to be judgmental, and base their judgements solely on outward appearances. Valgardson’s Identities reflects this idea and shows how identifying ourselves and others based on outward appearances can turn deceptive and dangerous. The story starts out with the protagonist being dependant on his own outward appearance and the judgements of others to keep him safe. He relies on his “day old beard […] combined with his clothes [to] provide immunity” against those that he has classified as dangerous. He depends on the judgements of those in front of him and focuses completely on trying to blend in with them. He never considers or realizes that there will be others like his actual self that will be deceived by his appearance, thus putting his own life on the line. In this case, a police officer is deceived by the protagonist’s appearance, which causes him to perceive the man as a danger. This perception leads the officer to make a huge mistake – one that he would never be able to take back. He identifies the man “as a potential thief and not as a probable owner” as “he has been trained to see an unshaven man in blue jeans” as such. The police officer sees the man and instantly judges him based on his appearance. He is fooled by his own judgements and never considers that the man has no intention of doing any wrong and is just a man trying to get back home. These events lead up to the protagonist putting his faith in the Police Officer because he “recognizes the uniform”. He is certain that his safety is ensured, and “does not feel fear but relief”. Thus, he “instinctively [relaxes], certain of his own safety”, and in his last ironically trusting “movement of his life, he reaches his hand toward his wallet for his identity”, and dies. The protagonist did not realize that he was putting his life in danger by unknowingly trusting an inexperienced officer who was judging him superficially. The officer, being nervous, fails to consider what else the man may be and shoots him. The trust that the protagonist placed in the police officer’s uniform consequently deceived him into acting in a way that would end his life. Thus, the story illustrates how humans are extremely superficial –we judge others based on appearance; what we do not realize is how these perceptions can lead us down a deceptive and dangerous road.

i've got my mindset.

it's 5.41 am, I woke up at 4...I haven't been able to sleep properly at all tonight. So, I decided I'd just wake up and write my alternative ending (english hw) so that I wouldn't have to rush tommorow. It took less time than I actually expected. So, since I'm done facebooking, twittering, etc. well not done msning, but bleh, you get the point.

Hmm, so what's there to blog about?
Nothing new...just leading my dear old boring life. Tired, as usual.

OH OH OH. lol, you're FUNNNNNY. trying to give advive to others that YOU won't even take yourself? you're a joke. AND I'VE LOST MY ENERGY TO RANT. or, kind of decided that it actually pisses me off more. Guess a certain someone was right about that? when he was still, um, normal? whatever happened to him, anyway?

ummmm, yep. 5.48, brain isn't working too well. I HEAR BIRDS CHIRPING? Damn, I'm gonna CRASH when i get home after school, unless I go exercise or something. i'm hungry, but if i get out of my room, my parents are BOUND to wake up and go WHY ARE YOU AWAKE.

mmm, maybe i should do some chinese homework. I really don't want to though, i have to write 250 chinese words like WHO DOES THAT? not me, kay thanks :)

nothing nothing nothing left to say. I WANT MY BIO TEST BACK. Wow, I'm weird at 5.52 in the morning.

i just wanna let it go.

YAY :) just went running. Terrible thing would be that I'm most probably going to wake up to the sore-EST body ever tmr! Haha, oh well :) 3 consecutive days of exercise, works for me :) it gets me all hyped up anyway.

Swimming is actually such a good workout :) I need to go more often! Swam 20 laps yesterday, then suana and hottub :) obviously :D hmm, I should swim more laps next time. Kay, homework time.

-nothing will get in my way of getting what i want.

there's nothing you can do to change my mind.

My whole body is so sore.

I pretty much tried to pull an all nighter on Thursday night (because I couldn't focus in the afternoon) to prepare for the biology test on Friday, but that didn't work. I think I only slept 2 - 3 hours? I can't remember. I pretty much ended up leaving school early and crashed.

Went to the gym today, then bubble tea :) haven't had bubble tea in forever. Going swimming tommorow after church, I think? Hopefully. I haven't swam in a year!!

yayy most prob swimming & gymming tomorrow! or, today i guess, shit, it's 1 am. So, tired, kay - crashing time.

today was a fairytale

why do the simplest things make me so incredibly happy sometimes? someone just made my day, literally :) haven't been quite so hyper & happy in quite awhile :)

wtf have i ever done to you, asshole.

the story left untold, is better than you know.

seow family, cny - in canada. xx.

On replay, once again

Mm, whatcha say? That you only meant well - well, of course you did, mm, whatcha say? That it's all for the best? Well, of course it is...

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happy cny & have a great valentine's day

恭喜发财

&

Happy Valentine's Day to all :)

Happy cny..a day early

Seriously? I'm forced to wake up at 11 and go out all day? I absolutely adore Chinese new year..but really? I need to sleep :/


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can you actually say this isn't true?

Remember how you said that singapore guys from all guys schools were immature when it came to relationships, liking girls, etc. ? Remember how you said you were different? I hate to break it to you, Ray, but you're exactly like them. Talk about being an absolute hypocrite.

it doesn't matter how, it doesn't matter why

Awe, it's sunnnnnyyy :)

I should really go running, but i'm an incredibly lazy bum who has decided i will not get off my ass and go out there & run :( SUCKS FOR ME

Hmm, something that's running through my mind at the moment - English class. "We all want to be right nowadays?", something along those lines? True, so true.

Nooooothing left to say except that, I officially do not remember grade 10 science. Why would the water's temperature stop going up after it boils? I actually...do not know.

PAAAAT - that's the malibu i'm talkin bout :) sucha cute bottle!

bored child on a sunny day :)

& if you don't want people to know you're talking about them, don't talk about them at all.

P.S. Do not talk about me if you've never even MET me in your life, and you most probably will never meet me in your entire lifetime. What do you guys gain from bringing up my name in a place i'm not even in? Pointless, don't you think? or are you too stupid to even realize that.

excuse me while i laugh my ass off.

Every Avenue has amazing songs :)

So, chemistry 12 - major dislike? I'm not used to the manner in which the questions are being asked, it's nothing like chemistry 11. Then again, I had a very different teacher then, so I guess that explains it? Seriously, how is the homework doable though? I don't understand what the hell they're asking, and he kind of didn't go through the terms. Screwed over? I believe so.

OHHHH, and you know what's absolutely perfect? When I don't realize that we DON'T have to do the paragraph questions in the bio textbook, and spend an entire day working on them...then get a text the next day telling me it wasn't necessary...doesn't make me go insane at all...

Blah, don't get me started on people twisting my words. It's annoying. How do you get "not worthy" from me saying you lie too much? Whatever.

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THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY.

I'm dead, like - words can't even describe how tired I was today. I fell ASLEEP in biology today during the video. I could not focus, at all. Report Cards yesterday, ew ew ew I wanted to shoot myself. 93 in chemistry 11(all thanks to that TERRIBLE final - 88%? really? who the hell is that dumb?), 94 in math (12% increase :O though, I wish I DID do better first term, it would've been a way higher mark - thank you dear Lord for giving me 100% on my final), French & Marketing - absolute nightmares - that's what I get for having 17 absences in each, LOL! Wait no, I got like 69 & 75 HAHAHA. Apparantly, I lost focus in french? I NEVER HAD FOCUS. Oh, and taking 4 academic courses = immense torture. Chemistry 12, Biology 11, English 11, and Socials 11, IHATECHUUUU :)

I'm having the worst writer's block possible when I'm suppose to be writing a paragraph discussing the theme of "the notebook". It's driving me absolutely insane. I'm just going to be getting everything out til i can get myself to think clearly. The notebook - the typical love story, with the expected happily ever after. It proved that when we fought whole heartedly for our heart's one true desire, when we pick ourselves up through the infinite times we have failed - we can get that one desire. Noah fought for Allie. He wrote her 365 letters, it takes a man who's truly devoted to write his love a letter, every single day - for an entire year. It proved his dedication to her, it showed his perseverance. Even when she wouldn't reply, he kept going - but he did stop, and he lost hope for a bit. But, when he got the house on the plantation, his love for her was revived. He rebuilt that house, trying to recreate what she had visioned for that house when they were there during that picture perfect summer. He built it with the belief that if he built it just the way she had always imagined that she would come back to him. It didn't matter that he saw her with her fiancee, he still had hope - and he was still there, fighting for his heart's true desire. With that hope, and with that house, she came back. It started out as nothing more than her wanting to visit him to see how he was doing, but once they saw each other: the love came back. That summer romance brought back memories of how true their love had been. As they reminisced, they could feel that the feelings were still there. Noah wouldn't give her up, he didn't let her leave - if he had, all the chances of being together once again might have just dissapeared, been flushed down. He fought, with all that was left of him - and he did get what he wanted. Sometimes, we just have to keep fighting with all that's left.

wow. prob a billion grammar mistakes, and terrible sentence structure & it's basically me rambling on and on. hmmphs.

when you try, but sometimes it's never enough.

i know that a couple people have said that i push myself too hard & i know that my parents say they don't expect anything out of me - but sometimes i can't help but feel like an absolute dissapointment? I can't maintain perfect straight A's - I can only maintain them in my academic courses. What does that prove? I'm not well rounded, I can't manage my time properly & excel in everything...what else...I don't even know. I just feel like I've let everyone around me down. I've let them down, one too many times.

rewind, restart, replay -

RESTAAAART.

maybe you're right,

maybe bitching just

increases the anger within.

so we restart, and try to look at things in a more positive manner.

First day of semester 2 - my classes aren't all that bad! :) As a matter of fact, I do like them.

Socials 11: Pretty easy course, hopefully? Let's just hope the provincial doesn't end up being hard as hell :)

Chem 12: Honestly, just looking at the data booklet in itself makes me want to cry. It looks difficult & seems stressful...very stressful. 90% of our grade will be coming from just test & quizzes & only 10% from homework, labs, etc. REALLY? :( why. (pretty sure I'm psyching myself out before the actual course even begins...)

Bio 11: seems easy enough :) tons of memorization, but I'll work my ass off to achieve a good mark.

English 11: Hmm, that whole end of the year thing just doesn't seem pleasant. How is anyone suppose to figure out a theme that connects the ENTIRE course? : I mean, it's english - I'm pretty sure some BOOK is not going to connect to poetry...is it? : In class writing sample topic did make me think though...Explaining what it's like to be a teenager these days? hmm, I had like a whole bunch of stuff going through my head non stop, pretty sure it was a very messy (in terms of how it was written - ideas & all that) paragraph.